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Post by Edward Cullen on Jun 8, 2009 13:10:27 GMT -5
Edward smiled as he watched the two head for the window. Svet's voice drew his attention and he stepped into the hallway to speak with her.
"You got a minute?"
He could see the indifference on her face and apparanty she was trying very hard to block him out mentally.
"I mean...can I talk to you privately."
He motioned over his shoulder to the stairs.
"Or...is this something Alice has to handle right away?"
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Post by spider on Jun 8, 2009 14:06:24 GMT -5
Svet's eyes darted to Edward for a moment and then to the window, back to Edward and then into the hallway. She bit her lip and then nodded to him. "Lead the way." She said as her hands slid into her pockets.
"The blouse is sitting on the bed, Alice." She called, as she waited for their 'private conversation', she knew what was coming and was dreading it.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Jun 8, 2009 14:31:44 GMT -5
He nodded and smiled and turned toward the stairs. "My room will be pefect...away from all the madness."
He tried to lighten the mood but he knew that she was in no mood to be cheered up. He only hoped that what he had to say would make her feel at least a little better.
Stopping at his door, he opened it and waited for her to pass, trying to offer the best smile of support he could.
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Post by spider on Jun 8, 2009 15:23:35 GMT -5
Her eyes were focused on the floor of the hallway as he named the destination and lead the way to his room. She didn't lift her head as he opened the door and she walked inside obediently. She stood awkwardly in the middle of the room with her hands still in her pockets and her eyes still on the floor.
"Look, Edward... you don't have to say anything." She said slowly, sparing a glance up at him and then dropping her gaze again.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Jun 8, 2009 20:24:18 GMT -5
He closed the door behind them and moved to stand in front of her. Putting his hands on her shoulders, he looked down to her with a gentle expression.
His voice was soft and soothing as he tried to pull her out of her inner shell.
"Please Svet, don't try to go through this alone. Your guilt is not warranted. In fact, you're doing the right thing if you're having doubts. Even Vampires can't help the way they feel about someone. Trust me, I know this more than most."
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Post by spider on Jun 8, 2009 22:38:16 GMT -5
Her face contorted with her pain for a moment before she shoved it away. With a sigh she rested her forehead against the center of his chest before she pulled back, her moment of weakness passed. She stepped out from his hands on her shoulders and shook his head. "You tried to not love her anymore, Edward." She said, pointing out the difference. "I didn't try, I changed back." She said her head in her hands. "It was slow, I suppose, but I did. Vampires don't change like that, Edward. Vampires don't fall out of love."
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Post by Edward Cullen on Jun 9, 2009 2:53:54 GMT -5
He sighed as she pulled away but he did not attempt to go to her..not yet.
"It simply means that you were not truly in love in the first place Svet...or that..when he changed..when his human part died..so did the part of him you loved. Who knows what happened but it's nothing you did wrong. It's nothing you should be blaming yourself over. You didn't do it on purpose."
He watched her closely and tried to decipher her thoughts but she was effectively blocking him.
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Post by spider on Jun 9, 2009 13:17:21 GMT -5
Svet shook her head sadly. Even if he could hear and feel the inside of her mind, he couldn't understand, no one could. First it started with the little things like what he said about certain things and then it was what he did, and then it was what he said about everything. She just slowly started to not like it, during the time she hadn't noticed it until it was too late. She shook her head again.
"It's my fault. I could have done something. I was too stupid." She said around her hands, her eyes focused solely on the scuffed white of the top of her shoes.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Jun 9, 2009 13:32:50 GMT -5
He shook his head and gently attempted to pull her hands away from her face.
"Oh come one..there was nothing you could have done! These things aren't managable..it's not something you turn off and turn on! You're blaming yourself for something that you have absolutely no control over. Please believe me I know what I'm talking about! I TRIED to control it!"
His thoughts turned to those long long months without Bella and then involuntarily to the make shift trial in front of the Volturi. He had been so scared of loosing Bella again after just getting her back.
No..he was certain that love was not something you could control. It had a mind of it's own.
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Post by spider on Jun 9, 2009 14:03:36 GMT -5
She let him pull her hands away but she didn't lift her face to look at him. She just nodded her head. "Sure, sure." She mumbled. But then her head shot up to look at him.
"What if it didn't change for him?" Svet asked, that was what she was most scared of. "What if he still loves me and I can't---return it?"
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Post by Edward Cullen on Jun 9, 2009 16:32:16 GMT -5
He smiled softly and reached out, taking one of her hands in his and squeezing lightly.
"Then where is he? If he felt the way you fear that he does...then he would be here fretting as much as you are now. Svet..when real love hits...you'll not be able to live or force a breath unless the object of that affection is in sight of you until you know for certain that the someone is truly yours."
He sighed and took another breath. "I know my wife is missing me just as much as I am missing her right now. Can you say the same of him?"
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Post by spider on Jun 9, 2009 17:04:08 GMT -5
Svet looked up at him, with a small nod of her head. "You're right..." She trailed off, giving his hand a small squeeze. "Thanks, Edward. You didn't have to do this, but I appreciate it." She smiled at him faintly.
"He left, so that must mean he moved on, right?"
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Post by Edward Cullen on Jun 9, 2009 20:04:06 GMT -5
Edward was glad to see a smile no matter how faint though he still did not know for sure if she was putting on a brave face for his benefit or if something he said had actually sunk in.
"I believe that might be the case." He nodded. He would not speak for another person without knowing the absolute truth but he did have a very educated opinion.
"When is the last time you saw him and what did he say to you...I mean, If you don't mind me asking."
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Post by spider on Jun 9, 2009 20:50:17 GMT -5
Svet nodded her head as she recalled their last conversation with perfect clarity. It was a few days after Rylyn had given her the ring and they were just sitting in Svet's room, not talking just enjoying each others presense when Rylyn said he wanted to go hunting but Alice then came in and needed to talk to Svet urgently about the wedding she was planning for them. She had kissed Rylyn good by like always and told him she loved him and he replied and he left through the window.
"That was the last time I saw him." She said, hurt seeping into her words.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Jun 9, 2009 21:24:58 GMT -5
He nodded as she gave him insight to the last time she had spoken with him or even saw him.
He spoke softly as his brow furrowed.
"Thank you Svet, I know that was hard for you to think about. I'm sure that you're worried..and that probably has played more into your guilt...but if something had happened to him we would have known. I think you need to ease your guilt."
He smiled again to comfort her.
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