Ha, figures three years now after this thread was made, and still no MS.
I want it so badly though!
I am now re-reading Twilight and it makes me crave what Edward is thinking.
Midnight sun I found to be slightly more amazing even than Twilight; Edward is so much more expressive and obviously insightful being able to give us the true personalities of the people around him such as Mike and Jessica. I love knowing things he felt for Bella that you never get through Bella such as how breathless he felt the first time he watched her sleep, or how intense he felt about Mike and compassionate about Angela, that was certainly a surprise his reaction to Angela. I love how boyishly giddy he always felt about being the only one Bella ever said yes to and how truly hateful of himself he really was.
Personally I felt it stopped right where the real connection between them was beginning, the turning point of both of their feelings for each other where I can see Edward's feelings turning down a new path and for him scary path. The area of life he has never been in before, and the places in his heart that have not had the chance to be used yet, to feel anything. I want to know how he began to adapt, what was happening in his mind when he finally decided to no longer ignore or push away his feelings for her. How about how scared he must of been of allowing a human for the first time in his life to see who he truly is, to know of his temptations, his insecurities all of these very personal things for him that he shares with her up in their first visit to the meadow; how did he feel he could trust her with information about himself so forbidden? And what it felt like to him to feel her lips against his for the first time; he mentions the desire once I believe as he is eavesdropping on Jessica's interrogation of their dinner in Port Angeles. I remember him worrying about her fearing his supposed fangs. And what exactly did it to do him when she disobeyed his request to hold still for that first kiss? And of course what about the first time she told him she loved him? In sleep talk I believe it technically was.
And most intriguing to me personally, I want to know what was happening in his mind and heart during the Ballet Studio scene; how tortured he truly was watching her inching closer and closer to beginning to become what he is, and watching his beloved writhe on the ground in awful excruciating pain. And of course his intense fear when it came down to him having to suck the venom from his arm, pitting his two worst fears against each other; her becoming a vampire and loosing her soul, and him loosing control and killing her. That was my very favorite scene and you don't get pretty much any of it from nearly unconscious Bella; this was a moment where Edward was completely in the spotlight but we don't see Edward at all because it's Bella's perspective.
These are all important things to build Edward's character even more despite the series itself being over technically; things anyone who loves Edward should and would love to know about. Throughout the series you never get too much of a chance to really feel Edward because it is always told by Bella and truth be told she never considered much what Edward was feeling. But unlike Bella, Edward's loving fans do care and value him.
Personally I believe she has it backwards with wanting the fans to get off her back before she considers finishing it; in the writing world it does not work like that, hasn't anyone close to her ever tried to tell her that!? Her fans will begin to devalue her when they continue to be denied a great story they value to know more of. Should this value not encourage her to finish it not the other way? I know for me it certainly would. Even in fanfiction writing I tend to forget about a story that has not received a lot of attention from readers who enjoyed it, and then I get interested in something else and turn my fanfictions to it. When people tell me how well I write and how much they want to read more of the story I become energized to give them more to keep hearing them tell me that it's still great. I love it when I leave a reader wondering where something is going to go, and yet want to soon as possible answer them. On Twifans where I am most of my internet time, I shared my new Twilight fanfiction 'Broken' with some of my friends there and one girl came back saying:
"Wow, I want to read more. Will Bella ever get her memory back, will she and Charlie always fight?"
and that pumped me up a lot and makes me frustrated that it takes me so much of a process just to finish one paragraph sometimes because I am such a perfectionist. I Just want so badly to give more when I hear comments like this? How can Stephanie Meyer not get that same feeling for those who fell in love with Edward and Midnight Sun?
Personally I feel it's a little cruel the way she is treating it after two years of deserved anger. It's like setting a piece of cake in front of a child, let them take one bite and then deny them the rest but do not remove the cake from their sight.
I do hope she can find that feeling in her heart soon, and finish telling us what is in Edward's tortured yet beautiful heart and soul(yep that's right baby, SOUL, I'm with Bella one million percent there
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@twilightlover96: I know I am way late here, but it's still there, I have accessed it in the past year. Were you having issues with your Adobe reader? That is how it is accessed, it's a PDF.
but I couldn't find it unless she took it off..... I PRAY THAT IT DIES DOWN AND SHE PUBLISHES MIDNIGHT SUN! I NEED TO FINISH READING IT! 
